I'm silent longings for company
a lost voice in a crowd's cacophony.
I'm my own worst enemy,
the ripest apple on the tree.

I'm the reason that I seek,
silent accusations that betray me.
I'm the truth I never see,
seconds snatched from insanity.

I'm a wild animal inside a cage,
frustrated fear, naïve optimism,
and ambivalent faith.
I'm a prisoner of my fate.

I'm a stream of racing thoughts,
without present or past.
I'm the saviour and the saved,
on Noah's lost Ark.

I'm the Sun, moon, and the stars,
floating in the galaxy.
Giving birth to billion more,
secret longings of eternity.

I'm lost passion, searching
for itself on the wayside.
The meaning of life found,
and lost before its realised.

I'm limitless dreams with wings,
flying high and flying free.
I'm the fear of heights, and the
cross-hair in every hunter's rifle sight.

I'm hope, faith and fantasy's flight,
in growing darkness, fading light.
No master of my body and
an unwilling slave of my mind.

I'm the desire in Adam's groin.
I'm the Snake and the Sin.
I'm Eve's need for a child.
I'm Evolution's biggest lie.

I'm the voice and the ears.
The tongue that tastes my own tears.
I'm the path and the journey
I'm every traveller behind me.

I'm the eager, innocent virginity
and the dead sexual fantasy.
Frozen time, and flowing sea,
I'm you and you are me.

I'm the hands ticking on a clock,
neither the time nor the key,
dying when the pendulum stops,
running towards a preordained destiny.

I'm the prison and the prison guard,
I'm also the prisoner inside the four walls.
I'm a running river and a stale pond.
Hoping for salvation from beyond.

I'm contradictions breathing for a while,
dark truths masquerading as white lies.
hard to believe, harder to deny
This is Me, don't ask me “Why?”