Largely speaking, one comes across three kinds of people on Sulekha – those who want to be read, those who want to write and those who are just trying to escape the boredom of their life. I belong to all three!
No. Not really.
But if I said the truth aloud, nobody will believe me. They would think I am an idiot of the first order. A fool who's looking for a river in the desert. They will burst out laughing at my silliness. They have every right to. Why would someone who contemplates serious writing spend time on Sulekha?
You see, everybody knows that Sulekha is a free-for-all social site. Good people from all walks of life come here to talk about extremely social things like making 'Chicken Roganjosh without Vansapati,' new ways to remove ketchup stains, bad hair day, blood pressure and how to avoid the pitfalls of infidelity in one's marriage.
They get together in the comfort of this virtual world to share their emotionally distraught middle-class existence with each other and see who has the last opinion on topics of general interest ranging from rising prices, bad bosses, seedy lives of film stars and India's future. As you can see, Sulekha is all about bonding. It is about sharing and caring. It's about networking.
Sadly, that makes me an absolute anomaly here.
I cannot speak on rising oil prices or chicken rogan josh. I cannot speak on the wonder of life in YOUYES (I live in India, in a hot a humid place called Chennai.) or the inconveniences of trans-atlantic flights! I have no comments on your bad hair day or bastard of a boss. No comments on your loveless life or the problems of raising children. I have no opinion whatsoever on any of the subjects that seem to make up, what is now being known as 'subjects of mass interest' on Sulekha.
I cannot understand what makes a poem 'wonderful' or 'touching' when it doesn't make sense. Maybe abstract is beyond me. I do not know how something just about resembles prose written by a three year-old can be 'captivating!' No wonder I am left speechless here most of the times. And that, my friend, makes me incapacitated in a social setup such as this. Where the key word is – relationships! As a member of this large 'community,' I admit, I am a total failure. And rightly so. Period.
So when a person like me, whose ability to network is practically non-existent, is seen on a social site as Sulekha, sane citizens everywhere have a right to laugh at me. To think, if I have lost my bearings. To mock me.
But there is something those upstanding citizens are not aware of. They don't know that when I sit down in front of my computer screen and open a vein, I forget everything, including my inability to network.
As I bleed on to the blank pages before me, I forget if you know me, if you like me or even if you exist. The whole world ceases to be. All I am aware of is this uncontrollable urge within to let out the beating life inside and, the black and white letters on the screen rushing forward, hastily giving shape to something I must have seen in a dream.
I no longer think of me. Or you. Or what you think. I think of life. And the immense love I have for it. I think of this world that I exist. I feel the joy of being alive. I see every word come alive on the screen and slap death on it's face. I am only aware of the consciousness that binds you and me in a single thread, as a single race, and my personal experience that gives it meaning. That's all I think and know when I write.
So forgive me if I don't know what to say about your trip to Madurai Meenakshi Temple. Or am lost for a comment about your little garden. Or son's wedding. Or the walk on sunset boulevard. I am learning. Believe me. I too want to be famous one day. I am learning to smile and say all the right things when I see you. So that you would count me in. But till then...let me stay. Let me write for Glory!
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electric, :-) I guess that's why we still communication. Each believes to have heard what he/her wants!! what makes us most happy!! ha..ha.. perfect!!
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you never have an idea of what i actually mean when i mean anything... that's just the funny way we communicate, my dear! :)
and if my hot-air helps keep your ego stay inflated, so be it too...
i'm happy, you're happy! :)))
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meera, 'blabbering brook' sounds like something from the tintin comics. I remember 'blistering bernacles!' very well!!
fame is a middle-class dream. glory is a not. :-) it doesn't picture in the middle-class scheme of things. Just yesterday I was talking to a friend, who is one of those pink-floyd relics, you know what I mean..:-) Somehow we got to the topic of life and dream and all that.
He is atleast 10 years older to me. He said, "listen, man. the glory you and i look for lies in paying rent, the kids tution fees and making enough to buy food. Everything else is a disease that people like us have - a disease that wants you and I to find ways to stay perenially unhappy!"
"The sooner you reconciliate to this fact, the sooner you will find happiness."
Well, I did not argue. It didn't really matter. He is the head a MNC advertising agency. Earn tonnes of money. ANd he has two kids. Maybe things change when two innocent lives are placed in your care. I don't know. But I know that glory is not a middle-class dream. :-) It is anomaly.
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electric, don't like to admit it, but the last line sure makes me feel better!! Even though I have no idea what you actually mean. LOL
But I like to believe you believe I am beyond all this petty things!! ha...ha... that sure rubs my inflated ego in all the right ways. :-))
as to that alter ego thing, if only people knew how close to the truth they are!!! he...he....
Good to see you here, buds. :-)
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You write. Obviously you enjoy doing what you doing. Period. I might think you are an enigma or incredible or just a blabbering brook :)
((Sorry someone said that to me and it got stuck...I mean the blabbering brook :))
Gratification is energizing. Every one writes here because the attention they get, everyone thrives on attention. Glory as you put it, we are all our own superstars.
Glory and fame - a middle class dream perhaps fulfilled by doing what one loves to do, being...
Nice.
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hey, who are you calling a damper... your alter ego?! ;-)
but really, mojo, all this ping-pong, defending-counterdefending thing... what's it worth? stop explaining and seeking explanations, my friend - it doesn't lead to anything positive.
if you write out of the sheer urge to let your creative steam out, drive ahead in full steam!
if you write to change the world, salaam to the effort. (yes, i'm a cynic that way.)
if you write to get some attention, fine with me too, as long as no-one's forcing me to.
let it be, na.
you of all people shouldn't need a reason to justify.
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Krishnan, I could not agree with you more, good man. I am in the middle of baking a new one. :-) I sure look forward to see you when I serve it. :-)
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Bigmojo,
Oh ! Now it appears we have run out of all ideas. We are in to discussing what makes us eat,drink,dress and sleep and of course quite a few agree as to each of these actions and some might as well dis-agree and expose some modern thought on, why they do differently.The icing has been licked, the STRAW BERRY chewed,plum eaten, the baked dough is munched and the wrapper is now transparent and I think now we should start with another cake.....
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Dear Sue, as always it is a pleasure to see you here. More so because you have all this nice things to say about me. :-)
You are right about some things, not-so-right about others, and wrong about the rest. Yes. I am sincere. Yes. I am verbose. And yes, occasionally, I am creative. But by no standards am I an 'awesome' writer. Dickens is an 'awesome' writer. Shaw is an 'awesome' writer. Camus and Kafka are 'awesome' writers. I am just a kid totally infactuated by the world they have left behind for me. In my mind. :-) A young tike with armed with crayons trying to ambitiously and naively copy the 'sistine chapels' of the literary world. :-) My craft is not worth a mention, but yes, maybe my sincerity of my attempt is.
I am NOT here without a personal agenda. Writing on Sulekha is not a selfless act for me. I enjoy writing. I am here to share that with the world. Again, like a kid who has discovered a colourful feather and runs around with a glint in his eyes, proudly showing it to off to all and sundry, exclaiming, "look! Look what I found!"
Do I think networking is wrong? No. I believe it is important to meet people and discuss things that you find interesting. But do I believe that one should mistake the term 'networking' to schmooze' and fake interest in the people around oneself? Offer comments to increase one's own readership? No. I don't believe in that. Can I stop it? No. Do I care to join? No. Do I condemn it? No. I just believe it is wrong. And that is where it ends. It is like faking 'love' to sleep with a woman. I don't think the woman will take to that idea too kindly. The guy might think it is smart though. :-) I personally would not want to be that guy or that girl. Simple.
Am I saying I don't like people who practise this kind of networking? No. I have no problems with people who believe in God, or Satan, or even human sacrifice. It is their life. I personally believe it is wrong. That is all.
And, finally, about being a noteworthy writer. Yes. I want to be a writer who is read for all the right reasons. If that is noteworthy, then great!! :-))
As long as I enjoy being on Sulekha, I will be here. The day it starts to rob even a second of joy from my life, I will quit. Life is too short. I don't intend to trade it for a loss!!! LOL
Thank you for the compliments, the encouragement, the hope and generosity. I appreciate it. :-)
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Hi BigM,
You are an awesome writer - sincere, verbose and creative. You can maintain your position as one of the top bloggers just by virtue of your talent. You do not have to go out of the way to spend time reading and commenting on blogs that are of no interest to you. One of the best things about Sulekha is the diversity of bloggers on this site. There is no need for us to justify our differient stands. Then again, your thoughts on the topic made interesting reading.
Looking at this from a personal angle, it has been eight months since I was introduced to Sulekha. As days go by, I have been discovering more and more talented bloggers here whose posts I enjoy and won't like to miss. I also like to acknowledge the bloggers I particularly like by posting comments. I don't think I do this to increase the traffic on my page because the more I read and comment, less I blog. I just don't find the time. This does not bother me either because I took up blogging more to see what it was all about and do not have aspirations or any personal agenda. I do not even consider myself as a writer of any calibre. So for me, the best thing about Sulekha is the opportunity to read and network and once in a while post something if I find the time and inclination.
As I said before, you have what it takes to be a noteworthy writer. I hope to see you on this site for a very long time.
Cheers!
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